I think this morning of birds, of how Eileen loves them. And I wonder if she’s a bird I need to release. I know she is not well. But I know, too, that I can’t bear letting go. I see so painfully. so clearly now that important things never do end happily or easily, that flesh is torn and fabric hangs from the fence as you jump and get caught.
MLG: Releasing birds is overrated. Sometimes it’s easier to let them rest on your shoulder and outlive you.
S: If we don’t let go, Monkey, I am scared we’ll never heal.
The Sandbox is many things, including a long story about a relationship with a therapist named Eileen. It remains one of the most challenging, perplexing, heart breaking experiences I’ve ever had. Recovering from both it and what brought me to the therapy with her to begin with has been a long road. But recovery, I believe, is possible.