The Sandbox

Amnesia, Art, Healing

4/16/17

7:15AM

Authenticity

A

S, how do you feel about no therapy? Next week—and beyond?

S

Fine. I forgot about it all—even forgot I sent Teresa an email so I didn’t expect one or wasn’t anxious to check email. Of course she didn’t write back but I didn’t care. If she doesn’t write back by Tuesday of next week I’ll confirm it with her. But my guess is she will. 

As I was making coffee this morning I was thinking back to the session last week; she wasn’t exactly on her game. Which is fine. It happens. But I think and hope that I’m really winding down now. 

Anyway…I tinkered a bit on the book. And a few others things too. 

A

Yes?

S

I did two unusual things or things that seem to indicate shifting to me. 

A

Yes?

S

Well I was listening to a clay podcast last week and they had a collector on. That night I looked up her collection and got so inspired that I wanted to not copy but somehow incorporate certain things into my work. Like colors and textures and the mixing of things that feel at odds with one another.

Went home and I was making four creatures. 

I decided to change my process a bit. And I began to explore eye placement and for a second I placed eyes onto the sides of one of their heads. Immediately I saw that a wall eyed creature could be cute—and interesting—and new. 

I began to see how a fish-like creature seemed to be an invitation for me to explore just what I was thinking about earlier—a new palette. 

A

Interesting. Subconsciously we were looking for something new and in changing our process, just slightly, we landed exactly where we needed to be. It must feel good to work with a new form…fins and wall eyes and a canvas that invites you to paint differently. 

S

Yes. 

A

And?

S

I also thought to add a new section to the website—one that reflects more of a correspondence and dialogue with people who are visiting. This was Teresa’s not-complaint—that I don’t invite people in—that my process is mostly closed—even to her. She claims it’s not a complaint but observation (right) but I would like to hear comments.

A

We learn more…about clay…about websites…about life…about us. 

S

I like not sitting still, not being in a rut, allowing and seeing that this meditation keeps me moving. As long as you listen…you move. 

A

“Change should not be rushed, because things will end with merely the expectation of change.” - Yamada Yasaaki -